I’m still not sure how I want to go on. I’m still not happy with myself. Slowly I’m getting some motivation, though. And we had Aurora Borealis in Kiel! It was so nice to see!

Over the last two, three weeks I’ve been struggling a lot. Doubting myself. Unsure what’s next. All those things. And to be honest, it’s still not great. I don’t sleep well. I’M not sure what to do. And I still don’t know how I can overcome my fear as well as self-doubts.

While I feel a bit better, I’m terribly scared of the upcoming weeks. Bank account is getting lower and lower. And there’s no way in sight to change that. I have no idea what to do because I still don’t believe in myself. I mean, I have no idea about anything. Why should anyone want to work with me? That’s what my thoughts are about.

On the flip side, I had a nice conversation with a lady I met in the café. It’s always very enjoyable when we talk. Furthermore, that one guy in the café is always super nice. Even gave me free food! Besides that, something super cool happened on Thursday.

Aurora Borealis in Kiel

We had Aurora Borealis happening in Germany, and they were visible even in the city. While it’s not my first time seeing the Northern Lights (first time was many years ago when hiking in the north of Sweden), it was still very impressive to see. Just look at the pictures! The quality is not great, I took the pictures on my phone. However, it gives you an idea. Have to admit, though, it looks more impressive in the pictures than by eye. The camera can capture the colors way more.

Thanks to my sister for pointing out that the Aurora Borealis are happening!

That’s it for this week. I hope to find more strength next week – but who knows… How can I stop doubting myself?