It’s the end of October, we just changed back to winter time today. The weather is mostly great. However, I still feel bad.

Not a lot I can say in terms of how I feel compared to the last weeks. I still feel very anxious. I don’t sleep a lot. I’m scared. Overall, I still don’t believe in myself. At least, I feel a little bit better.

Not being able to find any work is really depressing. And I don’t really know what to do. I mean, I know it’s all up to me and not about external factors. But when I don’t even believe in myself, why should others? I still just feel like an irresponsible failure.

The weather is quite nice. It’s a “Golden October”. Quite sunny, not too cold. Sometimes foggy in the morning, which I truly enjoy. Very mystical. Later, the sun comes out, and it feels warm on the skin. And the feet.

Met a former colleague randomly in the streets, and we will meet for coffee next week. Looking forward to that. That’s another small, nice thing that happened this week.

Well, that’s it. I’m proud that I at least wrote something, and did not stop. Although, I don’t feel like writing or sharing anything. Have done it though, that’s good.